Baggage

In my adventures across the globe there one thing that I have learned to be true. We all struggle and go through things. But, we all carry our baggage differently as much as we live our lives differently. 

People in my life seem to wear it all outwardly. It's all in your face! And, I've carried my baggage and as soon as I've met someone who would care, I just gave it to them. And, what I mean by baggage is not just my sadness but everything else I had. 

And, you will alienate people. Nobody wants to be associated with certain things. In my life, I've found that people that don't want to be involved in dramas; are not people that don't care but are people who care about the important things. They care about life and moving forward. 

If there is anything in this life that makes me and the people around me monsters is that we are self defeating. We are so involved in each other's lives. We have so many secrets and so much negativity. And, we have so many causes and fears. So much to cover up! And, instead of trying to put distance between the spots and bad people; we hold on as if the knowledge, truths and images that others know will magically disappear. As if no one else will see the restraints and pressure that we have put on their friend, co worker, son, daughter, father or mother. 

On the other hand, there are people who do care and some that really don't, who do take on tasks or our baggage.....no matter if were right or wrong. And, what we fail to say is that every bad thing someone could say about you; you give to that person. When you give some one your baggage and burdens; you give them your titles and enemies too. So I want to be careful who I give my burdens to. I don't want to prolong the disease. I want to end it! 

I don't know about you guys; I just want to move on with my life. I'm so tired of having people in my life, who speak evil and stir the pot yet have a certain idea for what they want in their place but can't condone or produce harmony. We are all one and the same; we either have to work together or separate. We can't move forward if were hurting ourself because of one person or many. In the real world, people just carry on. They don't have time to fight themselves when there is a whole big world out there to challenge you. 

And, it's not about, for me, that I have to kill this person or that. There are other persons that might feel differently about this person or that person. And, that's their thing; so talk to them, not me. Anyway, that's another blog post. Ending the drama, is not going to be easy. It's not easy to get others to understand or to get people on the same page. That's the hardest part! And, you don't want to be forceful or like some socialist/hitler regime about things. That's kind of the wrong direction to go. Yet you can't afford to be the whisper in folks ears. And, you dont necessarily want to be deceitful and work around people. But, you can't just sit nicely and let things get worse. It's an ugly business trying to get your life together when so many other people are involved. 

I look at my family and want to say so many things to them. I want to tell them just how sorry I am and explain how things are in my life. How I could use their  support. But, asking certain things of them is not just asking them to change but it's asking them to go against how they were raised. If you were beat and talked about any kind of why then you might do the same to someone. Adults are still like children in that way. When something is acceptable in our family or by the masses, we just go with it. And, it becomes apart of our ideas of morality. It is the rules. And, that's how we get baggage.