It is hurtful to see history repeat itself! But, interesting to see history repeat it’s self but in a new way. Now I am going to get rather cryptic and maybe funny so bare with me. There may be more direct ways of saying things but there are also less offensive ways. Writing this blog is like walking a tight rope some days. Telling the truth and not offending someone. I know some bad ass people that will fuck your life over without a second thought, but can get really butt hurt over a few sentences.
So anyway, I had a few ideas in mind and theories that I am going over which I am sure that the coming days will prove that I am either right or wrong. So in the mean time, here is what I see. In the past, I have seen populations bow and fall in a matter of months, I dont know if that is due to geographically location or the fact that these people pose not a big enough threat. I’m not entirely sure how or why.
But, I am sure of is that people are looking at today’s times like its car shopping at the auto mall. They want to look at all their options, test drive and as of now….looks like they kind of want to take it home or here. Whatever! The fact that its taken so long for them to do what was done in a matter of months is funny. And, what’s really unique is the fact that now they are using the past acquired resources to gain information and to create an opening for themselves. You know whom I speak of….its that job, baby! Has to be! I can’t guarantee it but his name isn't the only reason why he was chosen.
Anyway, its one thing to be a shady bitch and to drive by on some one. Get something and to keep it pushing. But, people are so unconscious. So determined to get one person that they don’t see what they are doing to other people in the process or to me in the process. I just hope that whatever he is getting is worth sacrificing our relationship like this. I just guess I never meant as much to him as he meant to me. But, then again, I still don’t know if I can really blame him for certain things.
Like for instance, I can’t say for sure that what happened last night is a direct result from him but I am pretty damn sure that he knew about it. Based on the way things unfolded and people that called in. Yesterday was revenge, revenge for reaching out to someone locally who was kind of in the background of my life. I don’t know about you guys but when someone is in the background of my life, I want to be right there with that. As much as looks could be deceiving these days, I want to be right there with them. I want to ask questions and give answers. But, more importantly, I am just trying to reach out to who I can because I am so curious to understand. I want for all of this drama to be over so bad.
Anyway, what’s really troubling is not the fact that the revenge took place. What’s really troubling is who might step forward in his place if he should go. Who might take over the reins. A new guy? or “the he who shall not be named”. And, you all really know what and who I am talking about now. If this event takes place, you all are going to see some things. And, some people really might get hurt. The guy that got revenge on me, is a sweet heart throwing air kisses compared the latter. And, what will he take over; car shopping or the whole damn thing.
I’d be lying to all of you if I said I wasn’t scared. More and more I have all talk people down from the ledge of doing something really insane. Things are getting desperate, people are getting tired and feed up around here. People around here don’t like to look like fools. They don’t like to be scared. And, they really don’t like to feel out of control or powerless. And, the same goes for those guys in the background. Also, I am sorry that so many people feel that way; I don't know what horror stories you’ve heard to make you this way. So I am trying to stay positive and trying to prepare for the worst. But, if push comes to shove and things go really bad. I just have to say and I hope it echoes in all of my loved ones heads……”I’ve had one hell of a ride in this car”. 10,000 Thank You’s from me to you.
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