Afternoon Edition: Should You Stay

I’ll never understand some people. I know I seem pretty dunce about some situations. But, I will never understand people who stick by people who don’t actually like them but like what they can do for each other. After a while, I used to think it was because of the reward and then I thought…maybe it’s because they don’t know. And, know I think I am at the point where I think some people stay in the positions that they are in primarily because they know they are in deep. And, being in deep is one situation that binds situations and people. 

Being on the other side of the fence, I see it all. Like there are a lot of people that, when someone is my friend and takes care of me then that person usually gets run through the mud and everything about me is run through the mud too. And, then all imperfection and exaggeration about me is pronounced. Meanwhile, when they decide to serve everyone else then life is much better for them. 

What surprises me most is that it doesn’t seem to matter to anyone. If there was anyone around who cared, I know someone should be asking me if I am okay. But, no one seems to ask. No one seems to care. If anything, one of the few people who did care, is gone. And, that’s the irony and sad thing about the whole situation. No one cares and no one cares about who you are. 

Even if it all boils down to duty and obligation. So what! I don’t care what your duty is if my life is worse off for it. And, you can sooner question people about their sexual habits versus their morals and ethics. So maybe I should feel sorry for people and their lack of choice. But, the truth is their choosing their happiness even if assumed under extreme circumstances. Everybody loves to win, to be the champion and to be happy. 

My decisions and decision making skills are based on who I am not where I am. I am a person in constant flex and transition. I am always going to grow and evolve. I can live by sets and standards but I will always be who I am. As I live and breathe, I will always be me. Hopefully thats good enough for other people. If not, I move on and if I cant move on….I cope. And, I am coping with a lot right now.