It’s one of those days…there is so much confusion in the air that it’s totally beyond me to speculate on right now. I just need time to process and relax. As the saying goes, “If it’s not better, then it’s not the end”. But, one thing is for sure, there are some snakes on this plane and things are getting serious. Might be time to do some reevaluation and inventory of my life. Just to be on the safe side.
There is way to many ups and downs for me. Being here makes me absolutely insane. I’d hope that I could just adjust; It would just be easy. The funny thing about life is we fight so hard and work so hard because we have the ideal and this dream but after awhile you start to forget what it was. It’s like I have a mission statement, I know there is a better word for that but its like somewhere I forgot about me. Like I forgot what I want out of all of this. I wish I was gone so I could mellow out and be alright.
I’m getting my ass handed to me everyday and the only (for sure) gain that I am seeing out of all this trouble is some weight. Maybe the negative or down side to things but it is a reality. There are more positive things of course but I am talking about something tangible that I belong to or have. Something that belongs to my life! In my mind, this subject is a horrible thing to talk about but I guess I am thinking about my life.
My mind is like a year or two into the future. And, I just don’t see anything. I just see myself right here and in the same place. If anything is scary, I just dont seem to have a plan at the moment. Normally I always have a plan or some kind of idea but I am just fresh out. I believe that some how or some way that I’ll be fine. Maybe I am just having one of those days where, I just need to renew my faith; I’m doing a lot on my own.
Whatever the case, I wish all of us a good week.
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