Jinxed

So I jinxed myself! Now everyone is coming out of the wood works; just like I said. And, even though I didn't want to jinx myself because I said that I didn't want the attention. But, since it's here, you have to turn negatives into positives. You can't let it get you down or make you unpositive. You've got to master it and own it. You have to not shame any kind or negative attention from people that you don't give permission to, get you down. And, it's not about winning or being condescending but it's about carrying on. 

Just this week, I've had people talk about my body parts, criticize writing, tell me how to handle my love life, I've been threatened (for something that I had no attention of doing) and so much more. But, I let it go. It wasn't important! Yeah, it hurt because it came from people that I love but whatever. 

And, like I said I knew I would pay for the sins of my past. Recently I told an old friend of mine that he was a terrible friend. And, it's the truth, he is terrible friend compared to what he used to be. Lastly, I said that he is making it hard to be his friend. That's the truth! I don't know how to be with his friend when he isn't interested in me. It might have been harsh and I am sorry if his feelings were hurt but I was honest. I did what I felt was right. 

To be honest, I should be depressed. The old me would be balling on the floor over some of the stuff that has happened this week. I should be taking my medication like it's candy but I'm not going to abuse pills that is already in my system. And, that's kind of energy that you get from some people. Like you should be laying all over the floor when they are around. But, God forbid something is going on in their lives. 

So I can't let it get me down. I've got to keep on going.