Redundant

These days seem quiet and different. It’s kind of a hopeful feeling starting to burn inside of me. But, I fight internally to keep my head and feet on the ground. Stay humble, stay respectful and objective. Which is really hard for me because my nature or my natural habits are quite the opposite. Yes, deep inside me there is a bitchy queen ready to be loud, obnoxious, sarcastic, dry and funny. But my sense of morality and duty are so high these days. To be honest, I just can’t help but want to do right. 

There is one thing that bothers me these days. And, what that thing is….it seems that a lot of things are redundant. And, its not just other people, it’s myself too. Its like a lot of times, I know that someone is bad news, not saying they are a bad person but just bad news for me, and some how I still end up in contact with them. And, I don’t know if I am stupid or I just don’t want to give up on someone or what! But, it real is starting to be time, in my mind, to say, “out of sight out of mind”. 

And, it got me to thinking about something else. Like if I am a bad person, for someone else, why keep me around. For, I dont know how long, people usually like to get rid of people they dont want around. Yet for some reason, those people never really seem to do it when it comes to me. Now keep in mind this is a generalization. How ever I think I will go down as the man who so many disliked but everyone kept around. 

Anyway, thats all I have for today. I’ve got some cooking and other things to do.