Talks With My Best Friend

Today I have a conversation with my best friend. Were both going through tough changes. 

He said: 

Indeed, i seem to make more pitfalls than opertunities for myself in life. :/

Then I said:

I know how that is. I often do the same thing. It's like when I do find good things, I try to commit. But, unfortunately good things often turn bad. Then when you have my medical/mental problems, most people don't understand. When you can't see the issue or feel the issue. It's basically invisible to you. I'm trying to start my life over. But, when other people aren't on the same page or don't support that then it's hard. And, when people bullshit you about supporting you it's really hard because you set your life up to do this one thing and then it doesn't happen. Then you look like an idiot and your basically back to the drawing board. It's tough, I could go get my license now. But, who is going to support me when it comes to buying books, food, and transportation. Plus, even if I do it, there is no guarantee that I'll get a job.

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Right Now, I'm lost if my current ideas and education don't get my life going. But, what's even worse, is that by sheer chance and a conversation, I've discovered that my fate is tied to a few other men's fate. 

I guess the saying is true.....We are stronger while we are united. When we separate, that's when everything else will step in to divide us. All of which really makes me wonder about what's going on around me. It makes me remember just how important everything is. It makes me remember that so much of my life is not about me especially with every new friend I make. 

As much I want to move on and make a pretty picture of my life. I've got to remember where I am. The way that things swarmed over me yesterday; I'm worried! And, I'm worried not only about my future, my happiness but I'm worried about people near far and across the sound. History will repeat it's self.